Saturday, July 06, 2002

I'm going to Home Works tomorrow, ( for more info).It'll be a great week. I'll tell you all about it when I get back. Yea, I'm pretty excited. It should be something to keep my mind off of Chris. I miss him so much!!!! Do you know that we had been going out for only over a month when he left. I mean, we couldn't start dating until May 25th, but we were really intimate (meaning close, not... yea) in the months leading up to that date. That date holds such significance for us now. We looked forward to that date for so long! But, since we had only been dating for one month, when he comes back for Thanksgiving, we'll have been dating for 6 months (and 2 days, actually). But he'll have been in CT for 5 months. Serious bummer, isn't it. I try not to dwell on it...
I got a card from Chris in the mail today. It said:

My Dearest Mary:

I love you so so much. I don’t have
much time. Please call my parents
and tell them that I am doing
well. I really miss you.

Pelar


Reading it, it’s quite evident that he doesn’t have much time at all. (Though, the ever present date is still in the upper right hand corner. Ahh, how consistent :-D ) The note is written in a hurried scrawl. And he only signed his last name. Quite messily, too. Chris has such neat handwriting usually. I realize that he doesn’t have time to read all the mail that I send him. He probably won’t ever get time. His schedule is full from 5 in the morning to 10 at night. Most of that is Activities/Training. So, I figure I’m going to stop sending him so many letters. At the very least, send much shorter letters.

Tuesday, July 02, 2002

I'm home from Connecticut... Unfortunatly... I'll tell you about the trip. Friday, Chris picks me up and we drive to VA with his fam. Chris had to sleep on this AWFUL cot. I thought it was gonna fold in half. :-P Next morning we drove to Anapolis to Matt's apartment. We went to St. Mary's for church. It was beautiful! You have got to go see it some time. Well after mass, we went to the Naval Academy and stuff and we had some sea food for dinner. It was superbly delish. Went back to Matt's apt. Matt slept in his room. His parents slept in Paul's room. I slept on the inflatable bed and Chris slept on the couch, both in the living room. Chris said he wanted to come over and kiss me but his bro's room was open. I woke up before Chris and I went over and kissed him. Nice way to wake up. We drove to CT. We hung out around New London and Groton. We went to the submarine museam. Nothing to facinating. Me and chris were pretty clingy that day. I wasn't looking forward to the next morning. That night, Chris and Matt spent the night in one queen, Mr. and Mrs. Pelar in the other. I got a cot, rather nice. Much nicer than the one Chris had to sleep in. It was funny, Chris and Matt were like hitting each other, not in a mean way. They tease each other a lot. Ahh, brotherly love. Its funny seeing them wrestle. The next morning we got up at five. We had to drop Chris off at seven. His platoon is X-Ray 1. The very first one. So they left first. It was sad. We didn't see him again until 5:30 p.m. For five minutes. We took a bunch of picutes. I didn't want to let him go, but when the Platoon commanders called the swabs, the swabs had to go.
Its different. I don't get to talk to him or email him. Not until late august. He's so.... grown up. Its different. I miss him so much... You have no idea. He's not a kid anymore. He's in the military. He doesn't really come home anymore. He comes home for holiday visits. Thats it. When he graduates, he goes onto fleet. Its just a harsh reality that hits me and I'm having trouble facing.

Well, I have to go. Mom wants online.
ttyl my peeps
princess